tiny overflowing currents of green, crashing over me, I am drowning – drowning, vision
blurred, I see you and her, holding hands, holding my head under the water, losing
my breath – losing you, you grasp her waist, I flail my arms, you touch her thigh,
I kick my legs, you shut her door, my lungs shut down – I’m sinking
six feet below, my thoughts the anchor, green everywhere – you
everywhere, I shouldn’t be here, I should be with you, holding
your attention, making you laugh, spinning through
your head, I should be her, marrow in your bones,
blood in your heart – there’s no oxygen here,
nothing but green – nothing but you,
and her, the water engulfs me,
green swallows me, my
body shrinks, cells
explode – water
expanding, I
am here,
small,